BAD DAY
Today totally a bad day for me,
morning i had a math quiz, ok, i did write something,
but i know its not right and something or one part were wrong,
but, i just wrote, better than blank
i'm so demoralized. I felt i'm so stupid,
I can't do well in every subjects.
Even math, my best subject ever, now like a piece of shit.
I'm so stress, this coming Wednesday have lab test,
i know nothing,totally nothing,
when my classmates explain, i also no clue what's going on.
Made me even more frustrated.
Week 8 which is next week, whole week i have lab tests and quiz.
After two week study break, which is two weeks later,
i still having my common test.
This shit just repeating everyday.
Same shit different day.
i'm so tired of this fucked up course.
After school, i meet my jay jay to have dinner,
suppose to be the best thing that happened today.
I really think that way.
But before i went home. shits happened again.
I'm so tired of school, and still need to face so many problems
moving house, blah blah blah.
and you not so understanding
blame me not telling you the things even i myself not sure about.
how to tell?
and i told you i will tell you next time.
and what have you send to me?
"I don't care anymore"
funny.
i'm so tired of quarreling little little thing.
so small thing.
so little thing.
You told me you would talk nicely.
and what was that?
sigh, what can i say.
i tried to make the effort and told you i will tell you everything.
but now, you still doing this, saying this.
i was already had a bad day,
meeting you having dinner with you might be the best thing that happened today.
but, actually not always as mine wish.
i really wish we can talk everything nicely
not quarrel so little thing.
and always joke and laugh together.
share little secrets.
being dumb with each other.
eat nice food together.
study together.
why is that so hard..........
so hard to be happy..........
bad day?
bad century...
need to get back to work,
back soon....
Love, Keira